EVERYTHING IS FUCKED UP . NOTHING IS GOING RIGHT .

SIGH , NOTHING IS GOING RIGHT I SWEAR . FML ALRIGHT . 

I cared too much till I lost someone important . COOL .  Pardon me yeah ? I'm very moody and feeling lousy . So , sorrry about the cursing :X

Cry only . No big deal . Even up till now , I am still crying , while blogging .

Yes , this sounds insane . But this is exactly what I am doing now . Keyboard freaking wet .

 Yes , you do . You use to pay attention to every little single detail about me .

So what if you do now ? It means nothing . Cause , You're already attached since thursday and I am like the foolish one , unaware continue texting you .

I am used to it . You know . You promised me so many things . What now ?

All broken . Don't even care whether I cry , THAT DON'T MATTER TO YOU NOW . ANYMORE .

You're not meant to be mine </3 Never will you .

Yeah . Attached ? attached my foot . Too dumb to not realise this was a plan ? You never do right ?

Let me tell you . from the start it was already a test/plan .

Every single moment I have been testing how faithful you would be & my plan was being more and more unreasonable/mental insane , because of ? YOU . I wanted you to move on , Why didn't you move on earlier ? If you do , you won't land me in this plight . You can choose not to believe this , ask Marian :)

Nothing will salvage . Yes , I admit , I was a little moved by how sincere you was . But it doesn't matter.

I never thought I would cry for someone like you , Brandon . It never even cross my mind . Not once . HA . You proved me wrong yeah ? Thanks alot .

Sleepless nights kills . I even went to the extend to cry myself to sleep . Halfway through the night , I will wake up feeling so lost and afraid and I don't know what to do . Then the whole cycle restarts again . Bad dreams every night , having to ponder over so many damn things .

Yes , I can do it . I have to be able to juggle through this . Not the first time anyway , but it will take time to heal ): It hurts . But I am gonna get the shit out of this .

CHLOE TEO JING RUI WILL STAY STRONG , for the sake of the PANDAS I will see later on in December <3

Thanking my mums :

Yih min mummy ; For understanding me , Telling me that I ain't the one at fault , teaching me how to stay strong , I appreciate that and I love you <3

Samantha Mummy ; You make me understand that he's not worth my tears , you really brightened up my dark path . Always there to cheer me up , I love you <3

Marian mummy : You always make me feel loved , wanted & Appreciated . Always there beside me , guiding me through the dark path , the steps I should take and always lending me your listening ears  crying shoulder . I love you <3

None of my mummies should leave me . It will kill me </3

Lastly for people who cared , Thankyou <3 Im fine :D

Darling wife , Ying ning , Xin ying , zi xuan , Yi qing & my dumb bro . Ily <3