My heart is weak , take it or leave it .

Okay , firstly , I wanna say that I AM NOT GOING THROUGH ANY HEARTBREAKS .

It's for my friends , but I wanna stand in their angle to blog . I want them to know that I understand how it feels . Cause I experiences it like 2 weeks ago .. ?

MOVE ON .

I know you really like her alot alot , up till the extend where your self-esteem is so low .

There's always this stage that every human have to go through . Puberty , times where you feel so lousy .

I know no matter how other people cheer you up , asking you to move on , is useless , all you want is someone who understands you . Yes , I am here . I understand how you're feeling now . Yeah . So what if  he's a male ? He's a human , that has a heart beating . He also do have emotions . Part of him is weak , but he didn't show .

Everything Is getting worse . Don't look down on yourself alright ?

We will all support your decision .

You'll always have this time where you have to make decisions . Hard decisions are crazy . I understand BUT don't run away from it , overcome it . Make correct decisions , Follow what your heart says . 

Bear the consequences yourself , be it hatred or disappointment . Make choices that you think is correct . In short , make correct ones .

I've been through this countless times . I know how this feel .Vexed up in just one thing . And we would think that tears would ease the pain . Yes it would , for that moment .

Remember the tears ?

Don't judge someone by his looks . Love the inside part of him , Understand his/her pain .

This is a judgemental society , I am aware , but know their story before judging . If not , shut your damn mouth .

This is specially for __________ . You know who ! 

Don't love him because you don't want him to get hurt . Find the feelings and love . If it really doesn't come , face up to it . Don't let him fall any deeper .

I hope this blogpost/pictures have been useful !

Specially dedicated to - Zi han , My bbg - Zi xuan <3 My beloved mum - Samantha <3 , Ying Ning , Ryan , Dawn & Wan qi 

 CHEEER UP PEOPLE ^^

CHLOE IS ALWAYS HERE .

Teacher's Day 2012

Hi peopleee :> So yeah . Went backk to my primary school , Fuhua Primary school :D

Went to the Red brickk area first . Anyway , back at secondary school , I didn't watch the concert ):

Cause I was the usher ): BUT . My prince ! Saw my princeee ! <3 Oh yeah . I got his number ! Damn happy okay , he even text me :3 . Original plan was to meet my bitch , Jiayi at JE interchange . But she end up getting a high Fever ): So me and ying ning go meet carina , and the first place we headed to was the canteen , to eat the food . Missed it alot , love it still .

See this dumb boy ? He's the friend I trust alot . I trusted him with my darkest secrets , I really mean my darkest secrets . He's a sweet boy . Everytime I sad , he will never fail to approach me , ask if I am okay  and will cheer me up !

SWEET RIGHT . I KNOW . People always think we couple ._. We call each other bitch and all .

Oh yeah . His name is Junyu . We're good friends only . HAHA . During the PSLE period , we always study together , learn together , after PSLE , we always play , laugh and joke . But sadly , something happened between him and his girlfriend . so he emoemo , then he will tell me everything . 

Up till now , I still remember what he said before I go to taiwan for my holiday ' HUH . CHLOE , YOU GONNA ABANDON ME FOR 7 DAYS ?! THEN NO ONE TALK TO ME AND HEAR ME TALK ALREADY .'

He so cute horh ? We still Keep in touch up till now .Yesterday after he play his basketball , I was drinking packet greentea , then he snatch it away wanting to drink . BUT TOO BAD BITCH , I FINISHED IT BEFORE YOU COULD !

My primary 6 Friends , part of it ! 

Michael . Handsome rightt ? LOL .

I know I very boliao .This is the toilet . YEAH , THIS IS DONE BY STUDENTS .

My sister was a part of this ! But people go vandalise ):

MY COUSIN , Look at the red bag there ? The girl putting her head on the desk ? My cousin .

Primary 1 only !

I miss this a lot . Got lift de . See the class ? Queing to take the lift up .

Last time , whenever our classmate is injured , someone will take the lift with him/her . Then sometimes , people will take the advantage ! HAAHA ,

The library !

We call it the courtyard , but for FHSS , We call it Parade square .

My god mum ! My tuition teacher from p3-p6 !

HER DOGGIES . CUTE RIGHT .

Brown one - Pompom

White -snowy 

Okay ! Thats it for nowww :D 

If got mood then I do another post about my clique ! I promise !

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EVERYTHING IS FUCKED UP . NOTHING IS GOING RIGHT .

SIGH , NOTHING IS GOING RIGHT I SWEAR . FML ALRIGHT . 

I cared too much till I lost someone important . COOL .  Pardon me yeah ? I'm very moody and feeling lousy . So , sorrry about the cursing :X

Cry only . No big deal . Even up till now , I am still crying , while blogging .

Yes , this sounds insane . But this is exactly what I am doing now . Keyboard freaking wet .

 Yes , you do . You use to pay attention to every little single detail about me .

So what if you do now ? It means nothing . Cause , You're already attached since thursday and I am like the foolish one , unaware continue texting you .

I am used to it . You know . You promised me so many things . What now ?

All broken . Don't even care whether I cry , THAT DON'T MATTER TO YOU NOW . ANYMORE .

You're not meant to be mine </3 Never will you .

Yeah . Attached ? attached my foot . Too dumb to not realise this was a plan ? You never do right ?

Let me tell you . from the start it was already a test/plan .

Every single moment I have been testing how faithful you would be & my plan was being more and more unreasonable/mental insane , because of ? YOU . I wanted you to move on , Why didn't you move on earlier ? If you do , you won't land me in this plight . You can choose not to believe this , ask Marian :)

Nothing will salvage . Yes , I admit , I was a little moved by how sincere you was . But it doesn't matter.

I never thought I would cry for someone like you , Brandon . It never even cross my mind . Not once . HA . You proved me wrong yeah ? Thanks alot .

Sleepless nights kills . I even went to the extend to cry myself to sleep . Halfway through the night , I will wake up feeling so lost and afraid and I don't know what to do . Then the whole cycle restarts again . Bad dreams every night , having to ponder over so many damn things .

Yes , I can do it . I have to be able to juggle through this . Not the first time anyway , but it will take time to heal ): It hurts . But I am gonna get the shit out of this .

CHLOE TEO JING RUI WILL STAY STRONG , for the sake of the PANDAS I will see later on in December <3

Thanking my mums :

Yih min mummy ; For understanding me , Telling me that I ain't the one at fault , teaching me how to stay strong , I appreciate that and I love you <3

Samantha Mummy ; You make me understand that he's not worth my tears , you really brightened up my dark path . Always there to cheer me up , I love you <3

Marian mummy : You always make me feel loved , wanted & Appreciated . Always there beside me , guiding me through the dark path , the steps I should take and always lending me your listening ears  crying shoulder . I love you <3

None of my mummies should leave me . It will kill me </3

Lastly for people who cared , Thankyou <3 Im fine :D

Darling wife , Ying ning , Xin ying , zi xuan , Yi qing & my dumb bro . Ily <3

Disappointed , Hurt , Betrayed , Cried .

Do you know how many tears I shed when I Knew what came out of those mouth of yours ?

Its hard to explain how I felt , It was just so weird , the feeling was just like , I just got stabbed in the heart and you just poured salt over and over again on my wound .

I WAS THERE . I WAS . I did manymany things for you . Don't forget . But what happened ? You took them all for granted . I might seem to laugh a lot , but I'm a human , I do have feelings and I also do have my ups and downs , more over I'm a girl . I tend to be more sensitive . Get it ?

You taught me not to judge . But what happen ? Was that your true colors ? I am confused , the impression you left me ; was a brother that would be there for me and protect me , definitely not hurt me, Was I wrong ? Or , did you not show your true self in the very first place ?

Have you tried understanding how I felt ? My pain ? The grudges I had ? The tears I shed ?

I've always thought that you would care for me . We were  so close . I knew secrets where even your brothers didn't know . I saw the soft side of you . When you lied infront of me , I knew that , it was a lie . But I left you with some dignity and pretend that nothing happened . But you left me with NO DIGNITY AT ALL . NONE . 

Yes . No doubt , I cried . What's wrong ? Everything . No matter what I do , who cares ? Who would ?

I don't really hate you , I'm just very disappointed . You know who you're .

Take it all , I really have no idea what more you want . I'm too tired to carry on the game with you . Tired of crying , understanding . Perhaps I cared too much . Way , too much ,

Anyway , stay tuned for the next post ! About yvonne's Birthday , I promise it won't be so moody :>

Pardon me for not putting any smiley faces :/

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A family outing ^~^

Yupp , I guess you're already bored about me apologising for the late updates ):

But I really no mood and no time -.-

Anyway , I was with my family at the new suntec garden city or whatever you call that . 

Okay , I know I've fat arms and all so stop staring la ! 

Me with my sister ! Ewww . My cheekbone is like so wtf .

Oh yeah . Anyway , ALL the pictures in the post are ALL stolen from my sister's blog ! So , the credits goes to her !

She didn't use any DSLR or whatever . Its just plainly her iphone . 

Praise her photography skills ! But , behind one picture is many shots ;)

She took out the best !

Speaking about this picture just make my blood boil . She just stood there analysing which angle is good . Going up and down the stairs , then take here and there . To be honest , I've no patience for all these pictures . Then I went down to join my dad and he was like ' hey ! where's your sister ? what's she doing again ?'

Nice right ? <3

One of my favourite shots :)

I was the model of the day . Okaycan . Stop judging me by how I dress alright ?

It's a freaking hot day that day -.- Don't expect me to wear skirt or long pants -.- It's ridiculous .

Tanktop is because I've no other shirt to go along with this pants . I can never step out of the door if my sister is not satisfied with what I'm wearing . She will go , ' Are you sure you're wearing this out ? You're going near town .. blah blah '

I love my hair here ><

She matched them out for me ! I was totally pissed of deciding what I wanna wear for 30 minutes .

Lastly , decided to go casual and plus , my sister is satisfied ! Out I go !

And , the owl was bought by my sister as a gift ^^

Headed to a chinese restaurant for dinner after that !

On my way home , debated with my dad for the whole journey . Or should I say , we argue over trivial stuffs everyday . Always no-win no lose ! Oh . I recalled what we debated over . Cause when he's driving , then got a slow car infront he would be like ' Must be a lady driver .'

Then when we see the face and it's a guy , he would go ' Stupid gay .' 

So we betted on the driver la . Then the first car , he say ' the one who lose will wash toilet .'

Then I was like ' bring it on !'

And I LOST ! FAGGG

Then the second round , I won !

Third round , I won !

Then on our way home we debated about who to wash toilet lol .

Obviously I won . But he ridiculously didn't wash the toilet ):

He's a good companion for debating !

End of this post , This was taken last friday by my sister . Anyway , me with my eastpak !

I love it <3  My hair is seriously screwed up ):

But I love it .

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