I hate who I am .

Hi readers ! I'm back . With something very different though . This blogpost is going to be veryvery wordy . No pictures at all . :/ I apologize . Urgh . Nothing is going right . Again , I really hate who I am . I mean like who will like and appreciate me ? I am like always taken for granted , I felt so lousy this few days . Negative comments floating towards my ears . Friendship got problem , studies got problem , relationship ? I gave up half of it already . Prince got girlfriend , all the hope went down the drain . My only hope came falling the hardest on me . if you have been following me closely on twitter , you will know la . Duh . I know I no hope >< gahh . Just pissed with who I am and how I behave . Stupid attitude and the bad temper of mine . Since young , I have been a very problematic child . I have very big problems in controlling my emotion . But as years come by and after so much of falls and bad incident that befall on me , I have no choice but to grow up . Yeah . I am always crying . Trivial matters ? I can't differentiate between trivial and major . It's all numb . I feel that I am such a failure . Rest of the clique . Ah . All so hot and sexy , smart and perfect .Standing beside them is like , I myself feel so disgraced . I really don't know how to handle with relationship . I don't know what's that anymore . I just want this guy that will be beside me when I need him , lending me a listening ear , understand me and lastly love me like no one did . But do I even deserve a guy like him ? I doubt . Pandas are my last hope . Seriously . So many things happening this few days . Brandon and bbg quarrel because of me. I'm such a trouble maker and a useless fat idiot . Grrr . I promise that my next blogpost would be much more interesting . Oh yeah . I changed my blogskin and all ! Hope you liked it . Guys , remember , behind ever tear shed by a girl for you , theres always a reason , you mean something or she's hurt/disappointed . Behind a smile , definitely is tears .

Stay tune ! ^^